snail

“Do you understand, ... , do you understand what it means when you have absolutely nowhere to turn?"

interests/likes

cats, STEM, SCP, poorly planned comics, lucid dreaming, school :nerd:, research, history, philosophy, sociology, the colour #7f00ff, liminal spaces, technical minecraft, toki pona, law and politics (when it's not a screaming match/ad hominem), airsoftgames: minecraft, geometry dash, geoguessr, cs2, celeste, war thunder, adofai, fnv, cities skylines, omori, night in the woods, roblox, happy wheels, google maps (i look at maps a lot)movies & shows: perfect blue, black swan, saltburn, everything everywhere all at once, hereditary, blade runner 2049, komi cant communicate, smiling friends, american psycho, house m.d, black mirror, breaking bad & better call saul, jjba, fallout showmusic: Slowdive, glass beach, Animal Collective, Mitski, Björk, Radiohead, JPEGMAFIA, Pink Floyd, Fishmans, Cities Aviv, Car Seat Headrest, Duster, Aphex Twin, Everything Everything, RATM, SOAD, The Microphones, Tyler the Creator, KGLW, tricot, 100 gecs, MF DOOM, Death Grips, Bladee, Ecco2k, STOMACH BOOK, Deftones, Kendrick Lamar, Gap Girls, Weezer, Jagger Finn, Machine Girl, transgender lain clones, m1v, Slipknotbooks: Ella Minnow Pea, The Fifth Science, Madame Bovary, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Crime and Punishment

dislikes

closed minded people and judging people, pop music (art pop is good), movie disruptions, nepotists, hot weather, people who fake mental illnesses, fake people

tw this:

hard SH, sexually insane stuff, generally things that u know may cause me to spiralif ur sending questionable
stuff/venting then warn me

byf

in uni, im a huge nerd, i like problematic stuff but do not support them, im what most would call nosy; i am born with and maintain a thirst for knowledge. sometimes my brain doesn't know what to take seriously. if someones anonymously venting in a server im in please dont try to track them down this is also just a general thing

credits & more:

vylraine, for inspiring me to make this

i made all the art but the undistorted image in dni is deerneyi am snail123O (capital "o")if you have trouble reading some of the text try highlighting

amici

lilia/xia, kayla, amolia, barrow, gray, marceline, lyndsey, lillian, glorie, ryo, hazel, emmy, dasher, blaze, avery, cameron, jasper, sam, liz, gatsby, et al.amor(es): akira <3

tw: relationship drama, bad people, not for those easily given panic attacks, with anxiety, etc.

10/2X-12/2 2021
1 month, 1 week, 2 days, 14 hours, 16 minutes. (40 days)i hate how you lied to my face and how soo perfect it all seemed and how you lied about your sexuality to "get" with me. it wasnt real, and you felt nothing.10/23-11/7, 11/14-12/17
15 days + 33 days = 48 days.you're a good person, i truly believe that. you are smart, smartest of all these. in retrospect, a breath of fresh air. you just dont apply yourself. you are just in bad circumstances, and i believe you can still save yourself if you realize. foh with that ghosting shit.(11/18-11/22), 11/23-11/24, 11/24-11/25, 12/17-12/18 2022
22 hours, 20 minutes + 2 days, 14 hours, 42 minutes + 11 hours, 27 minutes.fuck you. fuck every fiber of your existance i hope you lose your aunt and have to live on the streets. you lie about being single, you lie and go behind your bfs back for what? lust drives someone to be like you. you drive a hopeless, blossoming romantic to a devoid entity.2/26/23–3/14/23
15 days, 21 hours, 28 minutes.this could have gone on further but nah. too unconventional, too large of a distance, and had to be cut short by the next entry as i could not be such an amoral slut as i was in the past.3/15-4/30 2023
1 month, 2 weeks, 1 day, 21 hours, 38 minutes. (45 days)i wish i could say i wish i could say this was pleasant. im sorry if im painting this to be worse than it is, but this was actually tolerable. you made me realize things about myself i hate myself for. it was still many times better than the others on this list. thank you. Update 5/1/2023: none of that shit applies. you cheated on me with some motherfucker from louisiana, and lied to me about breaking up with them. you made me realize things about myself i hate myself for. fuck you.4/10/23 - 6/3/23
1 month, 3 weeks, 1 day, 13 hours, 12 minutes. (52 days)2/14/24 - 3/19/24
1 month, 4 days, 11 hours, 23 minutes (33 days)
im on the aro spectrum. or something. fuck this shit is confusing. i wish i could go back and not get in a relationship to save you from this incredible burden. i wish i could have went back and never got into anything. im sorry everyone, and im sorry you. i loved you all.